I was molested by my step-father .He was from Mexico .Now I find myself hating Mexicans .What can I do ?

.My husbands 45 and I am 35. I don't know why but I am depressed. Is that normal? I feel like I have let my dreams go like a fast moving train that can't be stopped. I feel powerless to do anything productive. Is that crazy? It is, isn't it?